Manageable

My Father has the wonderful ability to help me manage that which I would otherwise name as unmanageable.


Every week, I need to be reminded He's not going to fail me while I flounder, flub, and fumble around. His mercies are new every morning and He's as close as my next breath of air . I love the thought of His compassion being fresh every day; His faithfulness is abundant and His grace is ample.


I can know and experience His full sufficiency even as I question, wrestle, and wonder. I can feel uncertain in my adventure even while being certain of my expected destination. I don't have to know everything about all the stops in between, before I board the bus. If I was aware of all the paths the Guide would lead me down before I arrived where I was going, I would possibly abandon ideas before I had opportunity to search them out. To walk with the Lord in faith, is not necessarily to abandon my fears all at once; to walk with the Lord in faith is to appreciate the gradual fading of my fears as I gain understanding of His plan piece by piece by piece. 

Often, renewal is not achieved by means of a singular Aha moment; often, renewal comes in incremental measures as I breathe in and out and find myself moving from peace to peace to peace. Admittedly, some days, times, and seasons are more peaceful than others. It's not wise, honest, or realistic for me to pretend that my days are always flowing smoothly and things are always proceeding swimmingly. It is much wiser for me to confess my neediness and move forward comforted by His presence and direction in the midst of my apprehension, agitation, or nervousness. His nearness despite my disquiet makes advancement possible step by step or inch by inch. Together with the Lord, I am able to persevere in whatever surprising activities a given day brings forth. It means a great deal to me to consider the fact He is not astonished by events which occur without my prior notice or intention. 


Each day is but a part of a bigger picture and I serve a Master whose call to hope and life extends way, way, way, beyond my fickle imaginations and momentary frustrations.


May I not "write off"  those things God is still working out...


He has a plan and those who believe are active members in it... 


I yearn to keep an open heart, mind, and will before Him.