Marvelous and otherwise...
I have decided I may long be a person with many Day 1 entries in my personal journal. I need space and grace for start and re-start, focus and re-focus, do-overs, and new beginnings. I value continuity, but I also value change. I aspire to be different in the coming year than what I was in the year soon past. I yearn to move forward by chopping down obstacles. Some episodes in my life deserve to be recorded and remembered; others are more mundane and less noteworthy. I treasure the fact God treasures me whether my days seem noteworthy or not. I am reminded through Jeremiah the prophet that the Lord is my portion and my heritage; consequently, I can keep hoping in Him (Lamentations 3:24). I can look to Him in trust as He continues to provide the necessities which give me life (www.bible.org)
I can put my confidence in Him for the days when I understand things and for the days when I clearly don't. This is huge to me. As I look for comfort in a world which always changes, I can find my sticking-point for stability in a God who changes not. The Creator, who knows me completely, gives me grace which is ample, abundant, and enough, for whatever circumstances I am called upon to encounter.
God knows the depth and intensity of "this too, shall pass". He has crafted me and redeemed me for eternity, which is far more than I can grasp or comprehend in any given span of time. On this earth, there will always be things I am seeking, yet not fully attaining. There will moments where I gain inklings, only to realize I am but scratching the surface.
I'm so grateful for God's loyal love which doesn't run out; I live because of His merciful love which doesn't dry up (Lamentations 3:23). He knows me in my watching, waiting, and wondering. He knows when I flounder, question, wrestle, twist the sheets. I move ahead; I concede exhaustion. I experience forward and back, unsteady rhythm and tottering gait. I breathe deeply, feel passionately, and grant myself the freedom to be...anew....with all there is....and He is and I am. He is thoroughly aware of me and I am sustained even as stages and moods come and go.
